Well, it looks like I am finally back to writing. After months of working out my new office, I am now mostly done and no longer have to deal with contractors and the “speed of slow” that everything moves at while building. I figured it might be fitting to restart my writing with what I noticed the other day while looking at the amazing view from my new office windows.
Yesterday, I walked into my room and did a double take on what I was seeing out my windows. Out in front, I saw a storm with clouds dumping heavy rain. I turned to look out the other window of my corner office and saw beautiful blue sky with fluffy white clouds floating by. It seemed impossible, but right there in front of me were two very different views that did not seem to fit together on the same horizon. Maybe it’s just the introspective psychologist in me, but it got me thinking about how often this is like life, as the writer, Charles Dickens, stated: “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times….” The two seemingly opposing experiences of sadness and celebration traveling through space and time together, apparently feeling less conflict about their mingling than we often do.
I suppose we all crave for simple, understandable answers or explanations to the twists and turns of life, but to deny the “rain” or the “sun” of living misses the opportunity of a rainbow when the two of them are allowed to meet. Even worse is trying to balance out one view with the other, like saying there is no reason to be sad or notice the clouds because out the other view is sunshine and positive things. That ends up with the emotional equivalent of overcast weather, where it isn’t raining, but it isn’t sunny either: just a mash up of opposing emotions. That’s the kind of stuff that leads to depression and keeps a person unable to enjoy the seasons and color or life.
The two views which go with living bring a color and a beauty that neither can provide on their own, but only when we are courageous enough to let them both speak fully as we share our lives with each other. I’ve had some dark days along the way that were difficult to embrace, but maybe in the end that turns out to be more simple and meaningful than trying to ignore one “view” or the other.